Okay I'm going to try to write this blog as good as the thoughts came to me this morning at work. One of these days they need to come up with something that will record all your thoughts as they come to you...because when i'm inpirational...i don't have time to jot them down and it's not like i can jot them down as quick as my thoughts fly through my head. Anyway...

Is love enough?
A friend of mine and I have been talking here and there about her relationship and she said about finding out that love isn't enough to make a relationship work. This is a women who i can say is a women in every sense of the world, someone who i respect even to some degree look up too, someone who is wise beyond her years. Most of the time i agree with 98% of what she has to say, but this is one of those things that i don't agree on. In this blog i'm going to try to explain myself and maybe even make someone learn a thing or two. This is also a blog that i would love for people to chime in and say how you feel about the subject.

I'm going to start out by asking what is love in it's most purest form? To make it a little easier what is hate in it's purest form.

sweet so i found well actually i found them awhile ago i just never really checked them out...i found them somehow on wikipedia and just bookmarked them(watched) and i finally sat down and listened to them. kinda sux but so far they only do covers...hopefully it will be like apacolypica(sp?)and they eventually start doing there own music. but the band is called "Gregorian" and there a group of guys that chant...i love chanting and choir in music and i mean LOVE it could prolly suck ass but because it has that in it i become hooked...kinda like why i like some black metal it has that along with orchestra music. but anyway i'll post some videos up on here to check out.



Sweet just found them doing meatloaf


definately different from Amy Lee but it has it's own beauty here is my immortal




hehe and Rammstein

So i have guilty pleasures thats for sure. I was on newgrounds (ive been on there lately because i've been quite bored as of late.) and ran across a flash that i hate to admit but i just love good cheesy techno. it gets you moving even if your not really into music at the moment.....i don't know i just love love me some cheesy techno. i guess it reminds me of something i'd here in japan /shrug

but here is the flash...kinda cute

So this paycheck i put down some money even though i really shouldn't have. but i kind of got sick of tired of waking up at 4 in the morning and not really having too much time to get ready for work and i'd actually skip stuff in my routine. the main one was shaving. Well anybody that has known me since around after i worked at starbucks is you have to keep clean shaven or where a "beard net". Which for me anything that rubs my hair on my face even slightly it starts to itch and sorry thats a no go when it's constantly iching for 8hrs. but well i've started getting used to being clean shaven and now it's been bothering me that my beard would come back and what not...so first thing that goes on my mind is just buy a trimmer (my solution always...since i always seem to leave my trimmer at the last place from where i moved), but the problem with the trimmer is well it's got like 10 different attachments and even with all those stupid attachments the things still don't get the job done properly. so i went to work and was going to pick up a electric razor to see how they are and test it out. Well i was going to just get the cheap one but i was actually taking a class on razors at the time and the guy teaching the class really recomonded the middle grade one we had because he apparently had last years model and loves it. the main reason being instead of one circle of combs (the blades are underneath) it has three combs meaning more realesate in less time. So i got it (BTW it's the Norelco 8250XL) took it home did the long as recharging of 12hrs and well how is my initial reaction? It still won't be a actual razor just because of one major factor a razor will cut anything granted it might take you more time to shave when you get that really long beard but it still will shave it. but other then that I love the thing. cause when i first used it i did have my beard kinda creeping out to the point that i better do something or they might start getting on me at work. well because the hairs were so long all it did was pinch and pull...i mean it did cut too just not that great. so since it had a trimmer in the back i figured i'd use that to take care of most of the longer hairs. now my second day of having it and i'm really really enjoying it. it gets as close of a shave as a gillette razor which still boggles my mind how that exactly works...since a gillette you can cut yourself because you are taking a blade across your skin. where these electronic razors granted there still is a blad involved but the only thing that seems to be touching your face is 3 metal disc with slots and holes in them boggles thee mind.
so what do i like most about it...no shaving cream (saves time) no hair everywhere...when i read that there was a hair catcher in the manual i was excited because that was the #1 thing i hated about trimmers i'd get done and the hair wasn't really shaved well and yet there is like a 2 foot diameter of hair everywhere in the bathroom....pain in my ass. now i don't have that which is nice because i can shave anywhere now and not have to worry mainly when you travel car, plane etc etc. and this is the #1 thing i love about it the way it shaves it's easy on the face and if anybody knows me when i first shave my face is bright red and litterally stays like that almost all day...and it's ugly and unattractive....now i can shave and have my skin tone look great with a nice close shave. granted i still will have to concern myself with my dry skin problem but so far it's less of a problem i think because i can do it dry so i'm not putting water on my face that has all kinds of chemicals in it along with shaving cream that has even more chemicals. granted the intruction manual did say you might be irritated for the first couple of weeks (they give you a 21 day challange) but luckly that only seems so far in the neck area which is agitating but for that part i think it is mainly do to my hairs go every which way unlike everywhere else. so oh well hopefully like it said it will cease after a couple of weeks but if not it's a small price to pay for ALOT of convienece

Umm this post might not be for everybody. It's mainly the people who grew up on video games and had a passion for them...and still do to a certain extent (i enjoy them but i just don't make them my life anymore). For the other people who view this you might get a laugh out of it anyway. These are all done in flash but someone transfered them over to video format for embeding purposes. Most of this stuff and many more can be found over at NEWGROUNDS so check it out if you want more funny dorkie stuff.

EGORAPTER'S WORK

Awesome Fantasy 7 - Watch the best video clips here

ANGRY VIDEO GAME NERDJust for fun...this was my most hated game i ever played


Okay and now for an actual blog post. Nothing much going on in my life at the moment. Just working and trying to keep moving on in this world. I'm really excited about this paycheck though because i finally get to order Jess's birthday present. I just hope she likes it as much as i thought about it...granted if I didn't have to start paying rent so soon at my house the gift would have been way more extravagant. Then again there is always Christmas so add the official last touches that i want to do to it. People are prolly still wondering why it's so important to me to get this stuff for her. Well for one i think she will find it very useful, but the most important thing to me is this is my like 4th life long friend. Not only that but the personal lvl compared to my other life long friends are different. We have the ability to go deeper into life and talk about the shit that really matters in life. Plus who knows where i'd be without her with getting over my ex. She was always there for me for the most part if i needed to talk to...granted she has a life too and problems come up as well.

Trust is very important to me. I don't trust many people and I know who she is she doesn't let many people in her world either so it's nice that both sides of the trust factor is there. especially with my trust factor towards women. I mean i've forgiven my ex but i'm still very very cautious about getting involved with anyone, or just friends. Like i'm trying to be very selective of my friends down here because i'm tired of hanging out (not my true friends mind you) with trash. I want to be surrounded by positive people and not people who lie cheat and steal to get go through there daily lives, and for a good time they drink and do drugs because they have to numb there existence in this world because in reality they think there nothing...there just one pathetic person.

Anyway i think i'm done because i need to get up at 4 again...hopefully my check will be put into my bank by thursday like last time...cause i really don't want to have to give a gas attendant $10 in quarters...but so be it if i must...plus i had to take that change out of my change jar and i really didn't want to have to touch that since that is my personal fund for all my goodies....new computer and spiritual workshops and classes.

and done

Well life has been great.

So i fucked myself up a little bit...the house we live in is kinda old and of course you have stupid people that tend to paint the windows shut (IN EVERY OLD HOUSE KNOWN TO MAN i believe...since i haven't seen one that wasn't) so my window sticks.....but i opened it today because it was nice out...later that night i went and closed it but of course couldn't...somehow i managed to as the window was going down...i think it was because i was trying to stop it from slamming shut. but with the way the micanics of how i did it i felt like i barely touched the glass but somehow the window completely busted and my hand went through it...luckly it managed to not hurt me too much. i got 2 more bigger cuts on each side of my right wrist and then the back of my elbow is cut up by shards of glass that i don't think any is still stuck in my skin....but anyway yay for me...luckly there is another glass layer on the window...though will definitely need to get the one replaced because i think it will be bad on the heat this winter.

But anyway i was at the used book store the other day and i stopped going there for awhile since i had bought all the books that i could find that i liked...so i waited a few weeks before going back so they could get replenished with something i might like again. and they sure did. I've been looking at this book for awhile now at the book stores but it was always one of those books that i wanted to get but there was always a more important book to get. well not only was this book there but they had a hardcover (along with softback) which if anybody knows me if i can get something in either hardback or leatherbound i get it in those preferred styles. so i got this $25 book for $8....so i was excited. but anyway the book was "The Jesus Mysteries" which is basically a book on astrotheology.

Then some good news for me and i'll be excited when it happens, But Jess has been taking some classes that i've been wanting to learn and so she said she is going to take a long weekend sometime and come down here and teach me a little of what she learned so that will be fun because well someone is actually going to visit me YAY...lol i'm very lonely down here anyway..i'm done for this blog...just thought i'd post this up here since i haven't posted anything in awhile

lol this video is so freakin accurate it's not even funny

if you want to see who i am watch this video it's great...at least me.

Well I'm gun ho again. I figure this is how I'm going to do it. Because well its all about trying to plan and balance. I started reading the introduction to the Egyptian book of the dead so I don't know how that is going to be structured. But as far as the other books (the bible, quran, bhagavad-gita) is concerned ill be reading those at a rate of prolly 1 to 2 chapters a night. Though it seems to me that the quran and the bhafacad-gita arnt really that big of books. I mean the quran's pages are about as thin as the bibles, but between the commentary and the original arabic writing there really isn't much of the actual english words of the quran per page, and same goes for the bhagavad-gita but the pages are a little thicker for that book so it looks like even less. Plus with that book they have the original text then they have how its wrote in english txt format. Then they show how its all pronounced and what each section means. Then they finally have it in plane english writing that you can read.

But to me out of all of them the Egyptian book of the dead is really nice (at least the version I got) I mean its no leather bound or anything but its actually one of those annoying doesn't fit on the book shelf kind of books (because its so big) but the format is really nice. It has the whole Egyptian scroll in nice full color above and then down below it has the actual english translations. But I love it because the scroll is just so beautiful with the art. But I can't wait to read that too. Since it is 3000BCE (BC for the christians) so now with that I want to see if some stuff leaked over in to the christian faith. Which I know the arc of the covenant did. But apparently so did the ten commandments did too. But I'd like to find other books like that that have to do with the Egyptian faith and theology. Since I think Egyptians had the biggest impact on most faiths.
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Darkmaer Bloodmoon )O(
In Love and Light
"There Is a War going on for your mind, If we are thinking, then we are winning"
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blah I'm starting to get too much onto my plate. and i'm horrable at balancing. well I got the reflexology, work, studying religion, music, and trying to study up on my math basics for my GED...too too much...but i think thats a good thing really. keeps my mind off shit.

tonight at work i had a light come out of it's socket and had the prongs come down on my arm about about 10 feet up.....yeah kinda hurt.

boy balancing....thats prolly one of my most problematic things in my life. I think i might do a spell for that now that i'm thinking about it. i was already planning doing one for the audio engeneering thing...at first i was just going to do one for my GED but they say for example if your wanting money for something that you need don't do a spell for money do a spell for the total outcome...or for example if your needing a bill paid don't make a spell for money make a spell to have that bill already paid for.
one thing that i'm still holding strong too thought is not doing love spells.....since well frankly it's against my beliefs even though i don't think there is anything wrong (at least not that i can see) going a general love spell...to help find someone compatable but if your doing one that is directed toward someone specific. I don't approve since granted i don't consider myself a witch I do hold there law in high regard (an it harm none, do what thou wilt) and if you are directing a spell to someone specific without there knowledge or consent you are breaking that law......because in a sense you are making that person love you against there will......granted i do believe if they don't like you.....chances are there still not going to love you know matter what....unless they are weak minded.

but anyway i'm posting quite a long video of my general beliefs....incase anybody is interested.

you can find it HERE sorry no embed or some reason...douches

here is also a SITE case you want to skim instead of watching a 3 hour movie