Well i got to say first day was a little akward but for the most part everyone was really nice. I met someone who actually just moved down from lockhaven, PA...at least i think that is what she said...would have been another town. and i've already met an initiated witch which just by the look of him i kinda had a good idea that he was. but yeah so far everyone was nice and i had a really good time for the most part. we had some state offical of some kind do ther "sermon" which it was about the church and politics so that was cool any talk by someone who is in politics i get a great joy about.

but anyway there is all kinds of extra activities in the church in fact in about and hour and a half i'm going to go back and they have a meditation group with a Monk so i'm going to partisapate in that and maybe gets some pointers there....since well i'm having problems opening up my 3rd eye....everytime i meditate i feel a push pull feeling almost to the point that i feel i'm going to have a massive headache by the time i'm done mediateing but when i'm done it never happens so i know it's not like i'm concentrating to hard when i meditate (because your not supposed to concentrate on anything....your supposed to let your thoughts kind of flow by like watching water run down a river.....observe but not interact with them...at least thats what i've come to think of it as) but i've talked to numerous people and they all say it's my third eye trying to open...and anybody that knows me i'm to some certain extent have some sort of 6th sense.....i know people for the most part before i even talk to them i know when people are being untrusting etc etc and i have a feeling if i can open up my 3rd eye it will be a whole nother world for me...but i just got to get to that point.

but anyway enough of that speak........so when my mom gets back i think were going to start my reflexology stuff and she is even going to start working on me and unblocking my MANY blockages...which i know i have. and hey you never know maybe i do have a blockage on my 3rd eye and this will help...but i know i have blockages on my throat, heart and stomache.....and maybe others....i know i also need "cords cut" but i think that will come in time with me getting out there and being apart of the pagan community.

anyway i'm done for this blog.


Blessings

Boy what a week so far...I'm thinking since i don't have a job that my days for the most part would be somewhat relaxing...but low and behold everyday has been busy as hell.

So whats up so far?

When i first got here i basically did a quick hello and went straight to unloading my car because i knew if i sat down or relaxed i wouldn't want to get stuff out of the car......so within the first hour i had everything unpacked (took a quick break to get a drink before taking the bed off the top of the car. Then after doing that i put my bed together as my mom went and got us subs from subway...by the time she got back the bed was done and i was working on putting my desk i had bought before i came down here together. once that was done and my computer was setup that was the end of the night for me...it was time to relax. My room is quite big...about as big as my old room in my George St. apartment.....though since i have a single bed i have even more space. about the only thing i really need is a computer chair (using a kitchen table chair) and some sort of table or something......then i seen the perfect size and height round table as this pier one import type store down here for an alter....but it doesn't come cheap either...so hopefully it will still be there when i get a job. so after i took the weekend to relax...

Each day I've been getting up and going around town and picking up applications and boy is that annoying....i've filled out like 10 so far. I have a interview for spencer's monday. and hopefully i hear back from bed bath and beyond because that will be a manager position. So far those are the only ones that i've gotten a reaction out of...earth fare (a natural food supermarket) said to call.....so i guess there the kind of company that likes callers.

anyway last night my mom took my card and went to bed bath and beyond (she works there...one of her many jobs) and picked me up a 50 pack of these altra thin hangers so now all my clothes are all hung up (so no wrinkles...yay) and then this morning i had to take them to the air-port since they are going to go see her boyfriend's reletives in Wisconson then after that i came home (got lost) and basically at that time i put all my clothes in the dryer (to get them un-wrinkled) and hung them up.....then after that i went and dropped off all my apps to the places that i had picked up yesterday. then i went to target and picked up another bookshelf (my desk came with a little waist size shelf) you know one of those cheap $30 six footers. so i just finished that and cleaning up my room from the mess of the shelf and all the empty boxes that most my books were still in....i'm down to 2 boxes now...misc shit box and i need another wine box to fit the rest of my dvd's in (my moms boyfriend is a big fan of wine and goes to wine tasteing thingers all the time so he gets the left overs alot...and boxes...there handy for exactly that...dvds) but yeah after i got home today from getting the book shelf i realized that i was blistering....now i knew i got sun burnt coming down here....but i didn't realize it was that bad that i was actually going to blister.

But as far as meeting people....i think i'm going to go to a church...though not your typical church. this is a Unitarian Universalist church. Which basically it is a church that accepts all faiths without the credence and disrespect you get from dogmatic religions. So I'll prolly go for multpile reasons. 1 is i really don't know anybody here. this will give me a foot in the door at least. 2 i am a fan of studying all religions....what better of a place then a group of mixed religions that meet every sunday. and 3 they have a group called the CUUPS (Covenant of Unitarian Universalist Pagans) which is a pagan group inside this church that meet and do rituals (along with another male group called "the royal order of The Knights of Herne" which i'm not too sure about.) but yeah i think this is a good opertunity to shine down here and meet some like minded people.

another thing i've been doing since i've been down here is i have actually been reading my bible...granted the main reason why is because of a book i almost got finished before i had to give back to my friend called "Eden: The Knowledge of Good and Evil" but i picked up this little pocket bible because all all my bibles i have are these big ass ones infact the nice one i have is prolly an inch and a quarter thick....so hauling that thing around can be a pain so i was looking for a nice little one and right away when i saw this one i had to get it....i didn't care about the translation or anything i just saw it and had to get it...but so far the translation is not too bad compared to what i have seen. but it's a English Standard Version it's a dark green with a celtic knot cross on it.....quite beautiful so i had to get it. But yeah i'm actually almost finished with Genisis which is something i never have done before...i usually get bored really quick. but then again since i'm not working there really isn't much i could be doing until i get hired somewhere.


Anyway that is my update on my life.

Cheers for now.

so yesterday was my first day picking up apps. so i picked up apps for typical spots for right now.....i went to the mall re-applied at fuckin hot topic...err....then waldens books and spencers....that was all i could apply for since everyone else was online apps only. well just within today i got an interview for spencers and also i went to bed bath and beyond (my mom works there too...along with a few other places) and apparently they need someone in manegment so i went there today filled out the app took a survey and they said they will get back to me friday about a real interview i believe with the store manager.....so that would be sweet if i could get that right off the bat....at least until i can find a non social job.....i don't particulary like people. I also picked up a panera bread app and i guess for the most part if none of these work out i'll be pushing up fast food...so a week i'll give it then i'm going to fast food.

well just got down here and i'm already for the most part have most everything setup. i've got my desk/bookshelf combo all built. my bed is up and running.....it's a big room. i can easily have plenty of room to have fun with. and right now i still don't don't have a whole bunch of stuff in order but yeah plenty of room....i might do a little youtube video and show you around....i'm surprised how nice the house is on the inside.....it's like living in a newage shop....except with jesus everywhere instead of other typical newage stuff. but now i need a small little desk for my little personal sanctuary so i can have my incense and essential oils among other things. and of course i need a bigger book shelf along with the small one that came with my desk. but yeah we live in a nice little spot....quite and trees...nice little area.

anyway thats all i got for right now.

So i haven't wrote a blog in some time. I've been so Frickin busy in fact this week i thought even though i had to work friday into saturday morning i would at least have all sunday morning and afternoon to relax.....oh but wait i got to work at hottopic on sunday.......so this is my only freakin day......i'm so exhausted......i'm really enjoying myself though....i'm being productive getting ready for the move and getting my books ready and WOW!!!! just in spiritual books i got a 4foot stack about....and i'm sure theres more hidden in some drawers, under my bed and in my closet. but yeah crazy....and i just completed today all the major religions "holy" scriptures i of course got the bible KJV and NIV, and i got the book of mormon, and i have had hindusim book Bhagvad - gita since the holidays that i got from someone looking for donations and i gave them all i had which was a pathetic nine cents but he gave me that and another book. and today i picked up the Quran holy book of the muslims and as far as other interesting books i have the book of enoch the NAG Hammani scriptures (the gnostic gospels...like the gospel of mary and what not) and today i also picked up the egyptian book of the dead.......because well people keep telling me that astro-theology is a bunch of bull and i want to find out for sure...so what better source then one of the oldest religions......way before the bible had even began to be written...since the egyptian's had there religion in place way before moses even started writeing his books. which i have to say i don't believe that one person mentioned in the bible actually wrote the bible...i think it was penned under there name but it was a different person entirely.

you know whats i find funny...how one of the "newer" religions is the ONE AND ONLY TRUE religion to me i find that laughable....like i'm reading this one book basically bashing the hell out of every religion......which she does got some good points and then just when i think she might have something (without me actually studying it) she goes and fucks it up by saying something i know to be false.

for example and this is such a COMMON knowledge thing so i have to say....if she got this wrong how much else is she bullshitting to get her agenda across?
she said a believer in gnostic writings as there religion you would call them and agnostic........NO the believe in gnostic writtings is gnosticism and they would be called a gnostic.

here is the definition for agnostic:

1. 1. One who believes that it is impossible to know whether there is a God.
   2. One who is skeptical about the existence of God but does not profess true atheism.
2. One who is doubtful or noncommittal about something.

It has nothing to do with gnostic writings.......I thought everyone knew this....cause if everyone that considered themselves agnostic were actually gnostics......WOW i wouldn't have a problem at all finding someone to ask questions about gnostic writings.

and don't even get me started about the 3rd eye bullshit........and even though the bible still says there works and money can not "buy" our way into heaven were still supposed to try to be as "god like" as possable with our pathetic human exsistance......no matter how much we sin were supposed to at least try.....i mean just because we accept jesus into our lives you want to tell me i can do all the killing and raping i want and still get into heaven because i accepted jesus as my savior.....hell no.....though that would be a pretty funny joke is so......and this book is trying to tell me that trying to be like god is wrong.......now....taking it too far and trying to stop his plans by being like him as in trying to make clones and eternal life.....yeah now you got something to work with but some of this stuff this girl can just fuck off because my intuiation has never steered me wrong in my life......and i aint changing anytime soon.........and this whole in the end the end false religion is going to be a nature worship religion.....that is bad in a sense (if token too far) but your average witch worship nature....but also woships the source that has given us this wonderful world that we live in.

ok i'm done ranting.