I've been single for almost 2 years now...and I'm tired of hoping and wishing these girls that i do like are going to go out with me. I am a unique individual and most people can't grasp what i need either that or there too selfish to give a damn. So i'm tired. i sit in my house all day in hopes of friends being there or wanting to do something....well i decided to go to a site that i heard about from someone on youtube as a place to look for pagan stuff....so i go over to meetup
and I've found meet-ups for just about anything i could be interested in. meditation, drum circles, Linux, singles (that is the main point of doing this anyway to meet people), Reiki, Japanese Language and Culture, Wine (i would like to get used to wine a little more or at least find a wine i like). thats just a few.....trust me i'm done i'll be independent if i have to be and say fuck everyone that had a chance becasue i know with who i am you just let something great slide thru your fingers.

so forget the people that don't care about me....because in the end your only holding me back and keeping me from actually having a life that means something.

WOW this blows monkey balls...so i've come to the conclusion while on my break and checking out phones......tho i need to do some research on the iphone to see what blemishes it has. that i just have to get the damn thing.....SOOO what i did today was i opened up my second box which had a 20gig HD in it and slapped that into my main box and what i'm prolly going to do is use that to have windows on and just use that when i want to sync my iphone......there is another thing that just pissed me off i found out..........SAFARI is now available in beta form for windows. so in a good light tho.......that means when i put windows on my HD and get my iphone it will sync my bookmarks.......because i'm wierd like that........if your going to use a product like apples......use all the products you can to avoid incapatablities. anyway i need to get to sleep because i open the store tomarrow morning so night till then

So it's 1:20 at night and i can't get to sleep. Whats new there.......then i got to ask the question what is keeping me up. Am I stressed about something and i just don't know it or what? Or is my new OS (gnu/linux) keeping me up and taunting me to learn it very badly....i'm not sure but i do think it's very sexy tho. and the idea of free software LEGALLY is a nice feeling....and the sad thing is even tho it does have it's down falls with the big learning curve...well it's not really big if you do basic stuff......like anybody can use it right from the start and it comes with everything you will ever need...BUT it's got stuff that i need to have.......i'm a media junkie and right now i had to find a nice music player......something that is simular to iTunes well song bird is the only thing they have that is really nice and sleek......but it's not like installing something on windows where you download it double click and follow directions...it's alot more complicated then that.......infact i personally don't know what i'm doing......but i copy and paste alot of stuff off the internet and i get the programs i want to work. Hopefully that will all change soon since i'm going to be picking up a book prolly tomarrow. Anyway i'm also debating on what i should get for my cellphone when i upgrade it in january.......the iphone is out of the question mainly because it just came out......i don't trust stuff that just comes out really.....BUT there is the new blackberry curve that looks really nice and then there is also the Samsung Blackjack and then there is the all mighty treo that is always popular with people. my debate with these phones is now.....syncing them. i want to be able to hook them up to my pc get all my contacts, music, video, bookmarks, and documents off my computer and onto my phone......main problem here is GNU/LINUX now i'm sure there is something we can do but i havn't looked into it really........as far as the treo is concerned that might have no problems at all....since GNU/LINUX has a defualt program to sync with PALM OS but is it really compatible with GNU/LINUX since it is a cell phone and not just a typical PDA. The Blackberry might be able to as well since it's just got it's own OS and not like the Blackjack which has windows moble on it......granted there is stuff to make GNU/LINUX run windows programs i just think it will prolly be more pain then what it looks. anyway thats all i have to say for now.........ohyeah treo and blackberry are going to prolly run me around $300 with $100 mail in rebate and the black jack is looking like around $100...........hmmm what to do what to do......

Ok so a Friend and I had pretty much the whole day to hang out and along our journey we went to a place called big lots......basically a place that sells stuff that other stores don't sell at discounted prices......well we ran across RAP SNACKS and i fell in love......actually i couldn't stop laughing