So last night i just got done with the first book in the Twilight series because well frankly it seemed like all the Harry Potter fans just went to that series. So I was a little curious since I was and am a Harry Potter fan. So i asked a lady who i know what all the hoopla (that has to be one of my favorite words...that i think i might have made up...at least i can't remember if i heard it anywhere before) was about well she just gave me the answer well it's kind of a girly romance type book and i prolly wouldn't like it. so i just said okay and left it alone. now as the movie is getting closer to release it started getting to me again. I'm thinking well if its big enough to make a movie and frankly not just women could make this book as big as it has gotten i'm thinking just about every young person is reading it not just women. so i asked another girl and she just said give it a shot. so i went out and got the first book.

So i started reading it and thinking nothing really special about the book actually i thought it seemed rather like a high school based anime type of thing without the excessive humor or panty shots. But the more i read the book the more funny i thought the "love" of these 2 people had. I also thought it was funny how it corolates (sp?) to people in real life and people needing to feel important. I also thought how interesting it was that this story seemed to have alot of the same things that the Sookie Stackhouse series of books (the series of books that the True Blood series on HBO is based on) have between the vampire and girl in those, so i'm guessing that that series had a huge impact on her making the Twilight series.

But what bothered me the most i guess is when it comes to real life. This book, reading it I understand it i can feel why this is a complicated relationship. But then i look at real life and it blows my mind. People will make this type of a relationship into a reality (so to speak). People need to feel special in some way, so they build drama around there relationship even if they don't have too. THEY WANT a complicated relationship. People never go out with someone who really wants to go out with them, that isn't a challenge and thats no fun, why go out with someone who can just settle in and they can be happy for good or at least for awhile, no we want complication, because it makes us feel like we have something in our lives we have something to bitch about.

Then i looked at there love, there is 2 things that is making this girl "love" this guy. A: hes a vampire, hes mysterious...i understand that to some certain extent but i don't want no mysteries in my relationship and then what appears to be her main source of "love" that was repeated over and over and almost overbearing and frankly started to annoy me through out the book.....hes good looking. thats the only and really only thing i saw clearly about why she "loves" him...i don't know about you but that doesn't scream love but that sounds like lust. so what is based on her "love" is mystery, lust, and danger. but her real drive seems to be only his looks which is sad...i mean they started talking more and more at the end of the book but i really don't see a true connection all i see is people getting to know each other...how in the world can you say love when you don't truly know each other yet?

Then we move onto his love.....i get him the most because i see alot of him in me in the sense of what i'll do for love....i have done alot of the stuff he has done...to a certain extent because when i do find someone i love i'll be by there side no matter what. but where he drops the ball is he is selfish which says he doesn't really love her. again he would be nowhere near this girl if he truly loved her. I don't know how many women who i cared about very much let slip through my hands because frankly it was better for them. because i care for them so much i care more about there happiness then my selfishness.......so his love is flawed if it's even true love but i think it's more true then hers is.

but as far as the book is concerned i liked it enough that i'll continue the series...i just tend to look at things a little different then people......for example the princess diaries movies (not sure if there books) granted i completely understand what she must have been going thru. but that is the law of the land and thats how it works. so there teaching 2 things to little girls. A: it's okay to break the law. B: it's fine if you cheat. now most people would just tell me to shut up and relax but i know how the mind works alot more then i'd prolly like to and thats exactly whats going on....just like with this book. no wonder why people are having a hard time finding love when people are brainwashed into thinking that your supposed to live this fantasy life with the most perfect guy you have ever come across......now i know some women will say well what about men and there idea of a women...big tits and an ass and 105 lbs type of stuff.....well frankly like me and i know most guys that stuff is a bonus if they have some of that shit yay if not oh well. most guys just have to be somewhat physically attracted and thats all they need as far as looks....like if i guy can say a girl is cute thats all he needs then the part that truly matters is the connection.....i don't know how many people in life will deal with the fact that there is nothing there just so they can be with someone who is perfectly physically satisfying to them...even if they just down right hate there personality.

anyway i'm done my ranting because i just hate the way we are getting brainwashed into thinking the idea of what "love" is supposed to be.