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well i saw my one friend on facebook changed her webpage status one a blogger and i realized i have neglected my blog on here....then again i havn't been blogging much at all lately..which i think is a good thing considering how open i am on them.....it tends i think to repel people from my life instead of gathering them closer to me.

so anyway life update.

I'm moving forward ALOT as of recent. i got a job at the starbucks distribution center (which i need to call them prolly tomorrow so find out whats going on with that...they said i should start on the 14th but they said they would call me back to confirm it as definate and so far nothing....so i'm getting a little worried. but it's a done deal no matter i already took my drug test and all that good stuff.

Then i got a car about 2 weeks ago before i got the job......freedom finally. independance. the feeling of not having a car is like not being a whole man...like not being able to provide for your family.....it's one of the worst feelings a man can ever feel.

SO with a car and a new job...that will bring me in enough money to actually start being able to enjoy my freedom i am pretty sure the next goal is to start studying.....or just take it right away and see how well i do at it......but GED is the next step. then College...sadly i have no clue what i want to do......so i might just major in writing (i know that is not the propper title but who cares) and then minor in theology.....that way I can write my sexy fantasy books and then if i want to i have theology under my belt i can write about that as well. cause those 2 things are what i keep going back too.

anyway thats all i got for tonight

Well i think i'm going to try to be friends with this girl. But i have to move on with my feelings. So looks like i'm going to be going on a date with the next contestant that apparently actually wants to go out on a date and i don't even have to write a damn blog about myself (or video) so will see how it goes....i'm going to say maybe within the next couple of weeks that will happen...but she seems really nice lvl headed apparently wants a relationship and isn't afraid even tho she can't seem to find a nice guy either. So i'm excited about that. tho there are some downfalls tho i don't know how i will feel about it until i actually come to them. It's something i never really wanted to get involved with really but it's so hard to find a nice women in life...and from what i've seen of her she seems like a really genuinely nice girl...and from what i gather has a little freak side to her....but we shall see...someone that loves me for me and doesn't cut me off from her emotions and likes to express her emotions is what i really want.

anyway so here is attempt #4 since i've been single of a women that i like and could see something maybe come from it.....i'm getting really tired of this

Ok so a Friend and I had pretty much the whole day to hang out and along our journey we went to a place called big lots......basically a place that sells stuff that other stores don't sell at discounted prices......well we ran across RAP SNACKS and i fell in love......actually i couldn't stop laughing

So I got to see Blood Diamond tonight...scratch that i got to see part of Blood Diamond tonight. why only part you ask? Well last night we had bought some Microsoft points from xbox live and we downloaded 300 first because my dad hasn't seen it yet that went thru great no problem, But then when we went to download Blood Diamond it just wasn't working so we never got to watch it all the way thru....well my brother called customer support tonight to bitch at them about not being able to watch a movie that he paid for. In the end they gave him his credit back and we still have an hour and ten min. to watch it so we watched what we could. That movie makes you not want to buy another diamond again (yes I'm talking to all you gold digging bitches out there mainly...then again your prolly too cold hearted to begin with it doesn't matter to you). so basically the story is about the illegal smuggling of diamonds in Africa....they force people to mine and find diamonds by gun point then they smuggle them into the next country where it is then mixed with "clean" diamonds and shipped off to the stores and put into rings and what not.....but they do this basically so they can buy guns and go up against the government.....granted that is not a bad idea but when they are putting kids in guns hands and telling them to kill and on top of that aren't really doing anything particular in general besides killing EVERYBODY that they see.....i can understand if your going to kill the army and even government officials but when your killing women and men in the streets that is when you have gone down the wrong path and your mission that you had planned on from the beginning. so all in all i didn't get to watch it entirely but over-all pretty good movie and it really makes you think about what is going on in the world and how people truly are evil when it comes to making money.

Ok sorry but the sound is not synced with the video.....it took around 12 hrs to encode and i'm not going to do it again.

well since live video is taking to long to upload my video you guys get it via blogger.

so i got the newest Hellsing dvd last friday with my paycheck and all i have to say is it kicks ass...this series is sooo much better then the first one they put out..same story (tho next dvd it's going to change to follow the anime) but these are going straight to dvd in japan instead of going on tv that way they can get away with alot more stuff......gore being a big one because this version is so amazing. anyway check out the AMV that i found on youtube.

battle it out with jesus and satan finally you can determin who wins the fight in the end days!!!!

well since live video is being gay tonight it's giving me an error everytime i try and click upload SOOOO i'm just going to post it on here with the new blogger draft...hopefully it works since i know people have been having problems.

so while i'm waiting for this to upload i'll say i'm pretty happy now...i thought i'd really care big time that she didn't like me after all....nope i'm pretty good......tho i must thank her because i'm going deeper into my religion do to her comment.....even if it's true or not. but if i'm not the perfect guy...i will be

well i'm sure i'll catch hell for this Vlog but whats new....and what does it really matter i can't ever get a women to like me even tho it seems they have more problems then I so what if i have some insecurities i love myself more then most people...yeah maybe i want to be loved by someone a little too much but is that so bad really?