Breaking Up, p16
3 months ago
Ok sorry but the sound is not synced with the video.....it took around 12 hrs to encode and i'm not going to do it again.
so i got the newest Hellsing dvd last friday with my paycheck and all i have to say is it kicks ass...this series is sooo much better then the first one they put out..same story (tho next dvd it's going to change to follow the anime) but these are going straight to dvd in japan instead of going on tv that way they can get away with alot more stuff......gore being a big one because this version is so amazing. anyway check out the AMV that i found on youtube.
well since live video is being gay tonight it's giving me an error everytime i try and click upload SOOOO i'm just going to post it on here with the new blogger draft...hopefully it works since i know people have been having problems.
so while i'm waiting for this to upload i'll say i'm pretty happy now...i thought i'd really care big time that she didn't like me after all....nope i'm pretty good......tho i must thank her because i'm going deeper into my religion do to her comment.....even if it's true or not. but if i'm not the perfect guy...i will be
well i'm sure i'll catch hell for this Vlog but whats new....and what does it really matter i can't ever get a women to like me even tho it seems they have more problems then I so what if i have some insecurities i love myself more then most people...yeah maybe i want to be loved by someone a little too much but is that so bad really?
so i did my first tarot reading....and it's not at least to me what typically people think when they think of tarot...reading the future and what not...i don't know if there is spirit work or divine powers in motion that makes it work (tho i will ask for guidance no matter what) so anyway basically my big problem was i was trying to understand what the cards are and what they mean without doing anything but looking at the card......YOU JUST CAN'T!!! you can say whats going on in the picture and what it might mean to you but that don't tell you jack.......so i ask a question, mix the deck as i keep asking the question.....and then it starts to come together as i do one card after the next.....and depending on the spread i'm going i might only use one card or even up to 20 cards and each card meaning something different for your question........the one i did had a card that you pick out ahead of time the represents yourself at this time and moment.....then when you start turning over the cards .....card #2 represents past experiences. card #3 represents opportunity for growth card #4 represents future possibilities card #5 represents overall comment and card #6 was a optional arcana card which completes it if it doesn't feel fulfilled.......which mine at the end was the star......which represent hope....interesting.....but anyway i like this...due to the way our brains work as humans we have egos and with the tarot to fully understand what the cards mean we have to let our ego go.....and granted basically (tho i could be wrong since i just started) it's almost like looking into something way too much...you can get meaning out of anything just about if you study it long enough.....so in a sense it might be something just stupid works with how the brain works and gets creative but the point is...it makes you think about stuff that you never thought about without the tarot and in my book gives it a thumbs up and i'll be sure to use it.......and maybe as i get better at reading the cards because trust me it took me about an hour and half to go thru the spread my readings will become clearer.....because yes since this was my first reading i'm still wondering if i read them correctly but i have always and will always go with my intuition
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