Well i think i'm going to try to be friends with this girl. But i have to move on with my feelings. So looks like i'm going to be going on a date with the next contestant that apparently actually wants to go out on a date and i don't even have to write a damn blog about myself (or video) so will see how it goes....i'm going to say maybe within the next couple of weeks that will happen...but she seems really nice lvl headed apparently wants a relationship and isn't afraid even tho she can't seem to find a nice guy either. So i'm excited about that. tho there are some downfalls tho i don't know how i will feel about it until i actually come to them. It's something i never really wanted to get involved with really but it's so hard to find a nice women in life...and from what i've seen of her she seems like a really genuinely nice girl...and from what i gather has a little freak side to her....but we shall see...someone that loves me for me and doesn't cut me off from her emotions and likes to express her emotions is what i really want.

anyway so here is attempt #4 since i've been single of a women that i like and could see something maybe come from it.....i'm getting really tired of this

So the only thing that has been pissing me off as far as GNU/LINUX is the fact that i can't use my $100 webcam. granted i think the the positives out weight the negatives but it sure would be nice to have 2 things....webcam support and syncing for phones (granted it does have some but not for the phone i'm going to be getting).

But i finally am closer....i got my webcam to work with there softphone called Ekiga which is basically like skype where i can call people that have an account or i can call people on land lines for a small fee.....but i'll never use that but the cool thing is i got my webcam to work on it.

and here is a fun little video of Pat Condell

I've been single for almost 2 years now...and I'm tired of hoping and wishing these girls that i do like are going to go out with me. I am a unique individual and most people can't grasp what i need either that or there too selfish to give a damn. So i'm tired. i sit in my house all day in hopes of friends being there or wanting to do something....well i decided to go to a site that i heard about from someone on youtube as a place to look for pagan stuff....so i go over to meetup
and I've found meet-ups for just about anything i could be interested in. meditation, drum circles, Linux, singles (that is the main point of doing this anyway to meet people), Reiki, Japanese Language and Culture, Wine (i would like to get used to wine a little more or at least find a wine i like). thats just a few.....trust me i'm done i'll be independent if i have to be and say fuck everyone that had a chance becasue i know with who i am you just let something great slide thru your fingers.

so forget the people that don't care about me....because in the end your only holding me back and keeping me from actually having a life that means something.

WOW this blows monkey balls...so i've come to the conclusion while on my break and checking out phones......tho i need to do some research on the iphone to see what blemishes it has. that i just have to get the damn thing.....SOOO what i did today was i opened up my second box which had a 20gig HD in it and slapped that into my main box and what i'm prolly going to do is use that to have windows on and just use that when i want to sync my iphone......there is another thing that just pissed me off i found out..........SAFARI is now available in beta form for windows. so in a good light tho.......that means when i put windows on my HD and get my iphone it will sync my bookmarks.......because i'm wierd like that........if your going to use a product like apples......use all the products you can to avoid incapatablities. anyway i need to get to sleep because i open the store tomarrow morning so night till then